Fear is a path to the dark side...

Inspired by a post written by a friend of mine, I, too, shall lay my fears out here for all to see.

-I am afraid that I have already lost that which I held most dear
-I am afraid that the overwhelming desire to reclaim that which I've lost will cause me to place myself in jeopardy
-I am afraid of what those first two fears say about my character
-I am afraid that my arrogance and relentlessness in offering advice will one day drive away all I care about
-I am afraid that I will never be financially independant
-I am afraid of being accused of conforming
-I am even more afraid of actually conforming
-I am afraid of a tall, angry step-dad
-I am afraid of being misunderstood
-I am afraid that the steps I'm taking to get my life in order won't be enough
-I am afraid that I will never be a good enough martial artist to deserve to teach it to others
-I am afraid of waiting tables for the rest of my life
-I am afraid that my brother will become lost in life
-I am afraid that any number of my friends will get hurt, be it physically or psychologoically, and worse still, that maybe I could somehow have prevented it
-I am afraid of my desires
-I am afraid that I will never be the man I wish to become
-I am afraid of repeating past mistakes
-I am afraid of repeating the mistakes of others
-I am afraid of giving bad council to those I care about
-I am afraid of confrontation
-I am afraid that trying to overcome that fear will lead me to unneccessary and dangerous confrontation
-I am afraid of my delusions of grandeur
-I am afraid of hurting someone
-I am afraid of being wrong

There is, however, a light at the end of this tunnel. There are things that many people fear of which I am not afraid.

-I am not afraid of dying; to die would be a great adventure
-I am not afraid of being alone; I understand that the fear of driving away all that I care about is irrational, and that I will always have my friends and family to turn to
-I am not afraid of the opinions of the "they"
-I am not afraid to be unique, even strange
-I am not afraid to be myself and follow my own course, even if it lacks things that most consider important
-I am not afraid to love; three months of love have dwarfed every other experience in my life
-I am not afraid to hope
-I am not afraid to ask for help

All-in-all, I would rather those lists be what they are, than reversed...